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The State of Women

This past Sunday, a few friends and I banded together, vowing to get some writing done. A few hours in, hungry to take in the beautiful California sunshine and move our bodies, we declared a study break and lazily made our way to Golden Gate Park, spinning hula hoops on our wrists and tripping over exposed roots. The four of us have quite organically created a sisterhood; familiar, supportive, uplifting. These are women who are fantastically connected to their childlike spirits, and I’ve learned so much from them. I felt like a young girl that afternoon, at peace and encircled by friends. We camped out in the meadow, hooping and playing music. Mere minutes into our enjoyment, though, we were interrupted.

“Holy shit!” Celia was yelling. “Holy shit, that guy is masturbating!”

We all turned, appalled to find that she was right. Lying on his back in a clearing between some forest growth, a man dressed in dark clothing flagrantly stroked his bare penis. Even after our very apparent discovery of him, he continued to pump away freely, looking directly back at us.

“Fuck you!” I screamed, as we scrambled to get our things and make our way out of visual range. “You’re sick!”

By the time we reached the other side of the meadow, our reactions began to form. We laughed; isn’t a poor slob masturbating in public funny? What a pathetic creature. I was particularly shocked by his shamelessness — to continue freely even after we became aware of his presence. As the shock wore off, though, the laughter subsided and Molly’s anger grew.

“I want to go after him.” We looked at her.

“Well… I think he’s gone already.”

“I don’t care. I want to hurt him. How dare he abuse our space in that way!”

We continued to hesitate, trying to come up with reasons to minimize this incident and brush it off.

“I’m going,” she said. “Are you all gonna stay here?” She started making her way back across the lawn.

“Ok! Fuck! Ok, I’m coming too,” I ran to catch up with her. By the time we reached his hideout, he had of course left, but Molly continued to march up the hill. She moved without fear, which I couldn’t quite fathom; I was uncertain and rather hoped we wouldn’t encounter him at all. Still, I continued to follow, knowing that action needed to be taken. We did in fact see him very soon, a predator standing in the forest. He ran off as soon as he saw us coming, and we continued screaming at him long after he’d disappeared. I called the police and filed a report, and we went back to the house, safely segregated back into The Home: Woman’s Rightful Place.

The incident continues to break my heart in new ways with each passing day. The reality of women’s constricted existence was brought into sharp relief; I felt powerless to make this man — and so many other men — understand that I am not in public spaces for their personal and individual pleasures; I am in public for myself, because I am a human who lives her life and moves about the world. And yet, women — to this day — are not able to exist without restriction, without constant threat of being taken advantage of and abused. We are endlessly interrupted by men who do not register our humanity, but only wish to fulfill their own fleeting desires. This particular man forced me and the people I love into a smaller space/ a smaller world/ a smaller existence, indicating with his actions that we as women need to diminish ourselves and our personal, unique lights in order to remain safe. The constant messages flooded on women are: Don’t do anything to attract attention, Remain invisible, Don’t “ask for it,” Protect yourself, “Be smart.” I am reminded of the countless resources created for women, listing “helpful” tips to avoid rape, when of course the true list need be directed at men, and isn’t a list at all. The only tip necessary  to avoid rape is this: Don’t Rape Anyone. I am growing increasingly tired of being told what I can’t do because of the scores of faceless men who make life unsafe. After all, what tips could have been given to me in this recent situation? Don’t go into a public, well-populated place in the middle of the day with a group of people? The focus quite clearly demands a significant shift.

In our so-called “Post-Feminist” culture, an incredible emphasis is placed on females to be “the cool girl.” This is considered the ultimate compliment, indicating that we are “chill,” “laid-back,” and directly translated as “more like a male.” After incidents like this past Sunday, we women are quite literally Programmed to respond in ways such as, “Don’t let it bother you too much,” “There’s nothing we can do about it,” and, most tragically, “I’ve experienced much worse.” These are not abstract, potential statements, these are direct quotes, and they bring tears to my eyes.

Unacceptable sexual things have happened to nearly every woman and girl I know. We can’t continue living in this reality. We — all genders, sexes, and sexual orientations — must raise ourselves up, cultivating true love for ourselves and our fellow beings.


4 thoughts on “The State of Women

  1. Right On. I’m glad you speak out about what you see happening out there. You know your mother would have doe the same. You remind me of her and it makes me so proud.

    Love, Pa

  2. Hannah, thank you so much for sharing an incident that I think most might have been embarrassed to share (which speaks to your whole point of how we shouldn’t have to be ashamed by negative experiences inflicted on us by others). I agree that gender equality is still a serious issue and one that warrants our attention and action.

  3. I think you made some very good points in this post. I agree that more emphasis must be placed on men being responsibly for their actions and, just as importantly, their thoughts. A sad truth is that men of upright character, who view women for their true worth, are not only the quiet minority, but are even expatriated their “extreme” views. Mainstream media has, so effectively, warped our values. So many of us are guilty of frequenting the silver screen with the expectation of being entertained to the point where we compromise or set aside our standards for the sake of a laugh. In doing so, we allow our integrity to fade – our beliefs are silently rewritten by the “American Pie’s” of our culture. This results in a perverted view of what is acceptable – and even expected – regarding our interactions with women. And this is the enemy. The small influences and compromises of the mind that eventually lead to the egregious acts to which you alluded.

    It’s a shame that you had to experience such an upsetting encounter. It’s even more upsetting that nearly every woman you know has similar testimonies. As a man, it infuriates me; it’s totally unacceptable! And now, my job becomes that much harder – overcoming the stereotype that “men are pigs.”

    Please don’t be completely discouraged. There are still a few of us out there who respect woman and view you as the precious gems that you are.

    Thank you for having the courage to share and offer your insight. Reading this has certainly given me a boost in strength. Swimming against the current can be exhausting. But you’re post serves as a reminder to importance of doing so.

    • Thank you so much for your perspective and thoughtful words. It is always refreshing to hear from those who understand that we are all in this human experience together. Gender stereotypes are detrimental to everyone, and it’s encouraging to be reminded that there are men who are willing to put in the effort to overcome them. I’m in agreement re: the media’s largely negative influence, and creation/support of unhealthy and hurtful gender relations, which I touch on a little bit here:

      Perhaps next I’ll write a post about the state of men, and what that looks like these days; if you have anything you’d like to share, please reach out to me!

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